Sexy Polish HU Millionaire, HU NL100-nl1k

    • Today I've failed. Goal was to grind 10h to make 40h of grind that week (it would be my record) I've failed made only 7h 21 min. Anyway I've made my record when it comes to grind aka 37h 21min at the tables. Was fighting with myself, I got over losing 4-5BI on nl200+ in 20min, after like 40min it happened again for like 3-4 BI more, slammed the desk, slammed heater and quit. Worked some on game. Fortunately I have plenty room for my skill improvement and I started to work on it. Anyway time for some numbers. It's allready 18th day of 100 days challenge:

    • lieschenmüller wrote:

      Almost 38h is still a pretty solid result! At least it's way more than I played this month :D

      How are you feeling? Hope the pain is gone now?
      Awesome, thanks for asking. Had two rage quits this week one because of a 8 tables at the same moment and losing on them, 2nd because I play like king of retards, made calls because I felt like, made raises just because didn't liked folding (which is not that bad but not when you do it for emo reasons). Lost probably another best friend from childhood. On the other hand never felt better mentally. Had like two good run days in last ~14 - 16 ? But with GF it never was better, another best friend (unf not many left cuz what happened lately) from childhood visit us for 1.5 days, we had great time. I feel strong desire to work, I am learning many stuff about myself, especially lately, Gargamel_Fk teach me yesterday something VERY AMAZIng and boy oh boy I can feel it something great is going to happen. World is prepering me for something HUUUUUGE, huge clean up, a ton of mental strenght and plenty of lesson is about to happen!
    • @yamiyami
      Thanks. Probably quite normal thing. First if you improve at fast rate (I still think I wasted a lot of the time and could done sooo much more in last 2 years or so....) and you help with money to your friends who didn't earned 'big' money themselves nothing good can happen. Read about those two many times with many sucesfull people, yet still had to do it... Life is life ;)



      Hello Guys, It's been a week now. Downswing still hit hard so my ass get kicked. I have 3rd injury with my body over last 2 week.. I guess I have to have weaker work outs when I am under huge mental pressure from variance. I handle it quite good mentally, I am really amazed by myself and how I face it.
      I used to crack mentally at some point and go drink, watch porn / play computer games whole day, overeat eat junky food, spew at the table and evade grinding and working on game. I handle it perfect just my body cracked 3rd time now. This time shoulder, signal is clear and I am gonna adjust something... Not sure what but we will see. Since last week probably lost again another best friend, 2 out of 4 left, busted 2 more poker rooms acc but I feel like variance is going to it's normal state and I am extremely happy about it.

      I would love to have variance on my side. I would really love that. But I am going to be grateful if it won't stop me, if it won't make everything harder in the first place. I remember when last time I had downswing I was waiting for upswing not for normal run, now I am beaten so hard that I am waiting for normal run, but it's good, it has some reason that I don't understand. There is one thing I understand. Even if more bad stuff happen I won't write about them. It doesn't really help me and I see that I am more concentrated on them, def more than I should. Last week at some aspects was awesome. GF made me a fantastic surprise for our 2nd year together celebration, she booked a 4 star hotel with spa, we went to castle, she's really amazing. Also my best friend visit us at wedensday and we also had great time. Overall I see that my current relations strength up, which is sort of good.

      The problem with those visits is that I didn't grind as much as I should but here are the numbers.


      Three stuff in red it's a good start but I have to do something more. The biggest problem I'll have with gyms because I am not able to do them as often as planned because body cracks all the time, anway will find something out. I guess the most valuable lesson for that week is if your body crack change something and adapt! Gogogogogogogogogogoog chase this variance MOFO!
    • Funny feeling. I know I should write trip report from USA, on the other hand I am extremelly productive life and poker wise. My full time is dedicated toward work, people close to me, improving health. I don't remember when was the last time when I was rush like that... probably never.... I do not have energy for procrastination and doubts, I make choices instantly and I love the feeling.
    • ilidek wrote:

      Funny feeling. I know I should write trip report from USA, on the other hand I am extremelly productive life and poker wise. My full time is dedicated toward work, people close to me, improving health. I don't remember when was the last time when I was rush like that... probably never.... I do not have energy for procrastination and doubts, I make choices instantly and I love the feeling.

      Sounds awesome. :) What did trigger this energy boos? Need some as well :D

      Still, would be nice if you would spend some of your energy to write this trip report :love:

      Best of luck at the tables!
    • Keep having downswing. Today I was hoping that it's going to stop, have quite nice second session, time that I was planing to play ended but becuase I was running good I wanted to keep playing in ended up losing 6 big pots in 7min, auto post big blind, facing 3bets wanted to quit that shit and were losing pot after pot on the River. This was my first hope breaker that happen at Monday:


      Were losing to reg 3BI because of losing Flips and though it's about time, but well not this time, metagame was great because I could be tilted as fuck. Last 15 pots were lost by me hand after hand.


      Last hand for today was calling down Q9 on QJ4tt8J which was brilaint runout, J makes him not that likely to vbet AA / KK / Qx, 9 blocks str8, Q blocks QJ, so only J8, 88, T9 left, compared to busted FD / AK / KT and other hands, anyway he had quad, happens. Thought that I have to work hard on my game because of tilt but well when I thought more about it. Fuck it, I'll need to rest and sleep like a baby therefor quiting a day and preparing for tomorrow. Main takeaway from this week is that hoping that something ends leads to trouble, you either feel normal because your hopped match reality or you destroy your brand new desk....

      Not tooo proud about that, was dealing quite well but it's ok, I need more experience and it will be better. Can't wait to grind again tomorrow, variance shows me who's the boss for quite a while, it's fine, it would be good if it change but for now quit nl1k for a while. GOGOGOGOGOO grind GOGOOGOGOGOGOGOG
    • I got ill some time ago. It's funny how stress put huge pressure on the body and the body want to rest so it goes ill. The more I fight the more stuff happens so two days ago I had an aha moment. Well I am motivated to work on game and fix some other issues. Then I realize why the fuck I am fighting with myself to grind, when it's the last thing to do, when I have to fix plenty of stuff, when I am very motivated to work on game while I have many stuff to work on. Maybe it's my shoot to go through few levels higher with my skill, threw levels higher with some other stuff and fix few other issues that has to be done anyway. Doing stuff esy not forcing myself, trying go back to health while stabbing here and there stuff that are going to move me forward. GOGOGO
    • Today is 48 day of the challenge, 52 days left, 41 grinding days left, 305 hours left. I am very excited for the challenge, there are adjustments to be made to my overall plan, never had such a challenge but it's fine. Today I am very proud of myself was keep losing 250 hands to weaker regs on my lowest limit (kind of feel like playmoney) and I managed to play okeish. Waited for three spots to take it back and be up 1.5 BI (unforutantelly it's only nl100 so rake took 1BI for itself) Anyway know his weakness but those spots are rare so it's challenging. Today I've managed to do only 6h from 7.5h that I have to do daily. 299/305h left till end of challenge. Adjustment has to be done and I am more ready than ever.
    • It's a long time since I did not post an update. Plenty of stuff happens during that time. Stopped worrying about am I on downswing or not, from simple reason, it doesn't change a shit and it builds a tension. Friend some time ago told me something VERY important. Stuff changed, you do reg battles, you hold lobby, maybe it's not like you are on downswing, maybe this is your current winrate, maybe this is how stuff are going to be. I accepted it, I mean I didn't because I like to feel big edge over the guy I am playing with so I am working on getting better however I do not make a huge deal out of it, even if I swear, even if I am pissed, no one care, as simple as it is.


      Didn't figure out how this shit doesn't work but it shows only ~100k hands. It's like when reg battling it's easy to go for 1.5-2k hands daily so it's gotta don't import hands / do something else but I do not care, as long as I am improving as long as I know what I should work on and as long as I have more $$ it can show even -50bb/100



      So stuff aren't as bad in longer sample that I expected, however I have to be ready for implication that doing reg battles have. I have to accept it and live with it. Was waiting for guy like him for last year, anyway enjoy:
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      If you feel like hero:
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      If you feel like hero twice:





      It was very weird experience, look at his aggression tendencies:
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      This guy for over 400 hands, bluffed once in 3bet pot on 4 str8 board. He booked a profit of around 5.5BI on nl200 in Euro, and I've lost like 7BI to him. I have to tell that I was running hot against him, everywhere I had perfect bluffcatchers that are snaps against anyone but him. WIth him it was more like close spot, however there are stuff that you just not fold, same with value hands I had to hit very good stuff, had sets, str8 and all sort of dreamed hands in 3bet Pots, however he happened to have more of those I hope that at least he had fun time for that money. The very next day I had this very nice gentelman:
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      It is HIS graph, not mine. Both time I was fighting with myself to fight with them, 2nd time was way better. The first time I survived, were swearing, not super proud about my reaction but resisted, survived and played okeish so not that bad tho, 2nd time I was very proud of myself I really rocked and was keeping myself well managed. Of course I wasn't 100% perfect and I could woke up some neightboors but I did my job done.

      And my challenge:
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      Reg = Great, Black = I have to work on that till end of commits (with Grind and work on game there are mistakes about counting it so I am better than it looks)

      And funny thing happened two days ago at the gym. one woman was smiling to me as hell, I smiled back and I saw in her eyes that she really wanted me to approach her, so it's like something normal and common but what made my day happed 30 min latter, I saw her doing squads and I knew the reason why she had so lovely smile earlier. We were doing some chit chat two days earlier, I did not recognize her face, until she was doing squads.... I don't remember how many times it happened in the past that I didn't recognize woman until she turned off but it never stopped to amaze me.
    • @placebo
      Thanks. GL as well!


      Poker never stop to amaze me. Yesterday went out for drinking, chillouted, I am back with work and have to work few hours straight, first 10 min lose like 16 big pots, including AA against KK in 3bet Pot. It's very normal thing just very thoughtful. It's the same like with USA trip, didn't have big enough BR to go there, few stuff fucked up before we left so it cost more. So went somewhere under rolled I knew the risk but the costs almost doubled so it cost me 7 086 Euro and 26 cents (30 438,33 PLN) after which I hit downswing for 1.5x month, very thoughtful like starting session, losing like 6BI in 10 min, knowing that you have to grind 6.5h straight, stuff like that happens and they are normal part of life, yet every time when they happen I am shocked, one is sure, you never have boring life as a poker pro. During writing this had also Hit and Run yet fortunately things start to turn around lately! I am glad about it, all I can do is do my shit and hope for the best
    • Jezz today first time in a while where I lost. I don't mean money lose because it happens
      and it's going to happen often 40-45% of the time, depending from how good your edge is. Today I lost because my decision were based on my emotions:
      - I'll eat that great omelet that GF prepared, it's warm and tasty and I feel like crap, I am gonna eat it 5 hours before my eating window, why not I feel like crap.
      - I am gonna Pot here because I am keep losing and playing worse than usual is going to decrease my lose rate
      - I am gonna watch serial in the meantime, why I should work on my game or play with regs when I don't have fish action, why to work on changing problems when I can just distract myself, bullshit myself and pretend that everything is great
      - I am gonna feel like crap for another two hours rather than do something that change my well being, why to be more productive when I can feel miserable to spite world
      - I am gonna target weak range with super duper sizing just to showing I have balls and get unpaid
      - I am gonna to keep repeating that I am keep losing everything on sites where I made a withdraw because they know I went for VIP neteller and skrill and turned on domswitch to made me pay for it.
      - I am gonna speak about IQ of people who donk/call, check/raise rather than reevaluate my defaults on nl200+ where are plenty of Reverse Hunting, rather than work on that aspect I am going to tell them how well I know their mother. It will change my life by a lot.
      - Hell no I am not going to face and deal with domswitch! I am to proud to complain therefore I am going to evade problems, overeat them, spew and destroy another desk, dealing with problems is overrated.
      - Variance do you really think that you can make me losing money? I am gonna show you. You saw that? I did a spew I lost because of myself not because I was running bad, watch this, and
      here is another pot, and who is stupid now....
      - No I won't spend more time on making decisions when I am running hard, I'd rather distract my pain by watching serials, talking via phone while making decision just to distract myself for of improving results!

      More or less it was my though proces while making today decisions. I guess that thinking:
      - Fuck I've lost Top Set in 4bet Pot at 180bb deep at nl200 and Top Two in 3bet Pot 160bb deep with same reg on nl200, however I managed to lose only 430 Euro to him. I am glad I have such an edge that even obvious coolers I am not dead against him.
      - Damn this guy weakness is XYZ but on the other hand here he doesn't have weakness in that line I won't try to prove him that I am going to rape him everywhere, I am going to make exploitive fold and attack different ranges, those that are no nuts heavy.
      - Damn this line is tilting me so badly, I have very strong impression that at my stackes and against my default opponent it doesn't work anymore, therefore I am going to check it before putting hours on some sexy new stuff.

      Is at least overrated. Thank God that today I am thinking so clearly and my tigers leads to perfect response. Thank God that in day when I am losing 80-90% pots I can count on solid example 1 thinking that helps me thrive under highly stressful moments. Distracted, spewing, fat pig here it comes!
    • I am glad that I wrote down whole thought process. It made me aware of few stuff and it made me analyze two regs. It made me work on my weaknesses, it made me do few stuff that I was procrastinating. Today I was frustrated for my spews lately so I spend whole day on working on game, had to start with something else that is very urgent so managed only 6h 45min of work on game, however I am fine with what I did. Today is 75 day of commitments. 25 days left. I have to grind daily 5h 30min and work on game 2h 15min while having 1 day a week free. It's gotta be nice and I feel fire inside.
    • ilidek wrote:

      I am glad that I wrote down whole thought process. It made me aware of few stuff and it made me analyze two regs. It made me work on my weaknesses, it made me do few stuff that I was procrastinating. Today I was frustrated for my spews lately so I spend whole day on working on game, had to start with something else that is very urgent so managed only 6h 45min of work on game, however I am fine with what I did. Today is 75 day of commitments. 25 days left. I have to grind daily 5h 30min and work on game 2h 15min while having 1 day a week free. It's gotta be nice and I feel fire inside.

      Really tough schedule with just 1 day off/week. Don't you think some more poker free time might be better?